Aaaand 2 Years later...

It hasn't felt like two years. Maybe a few months. I guess for updates:
We followed through with the IVF June of 2015. I ended up having 26 eggs retrieved! Great, right? Welp, none fertilized the following day so we did emergency ICSI. Only one embryo made it to transfer, which, was the day after my birthday. Such a punch in the gut. I went through my TWW and spotted almost the entire time. Turns out, the progesterone suppositories were irritating my cervix causing the bleeding. At the end of the TWW I got a BFN. A BFN and a BFLoan!

So we've focused our energy on us and moving forward. Next on our list was getting into a house. So we spent the next year (2016) getting our credit awesome, paying down the extras, and house hunting!! June rolls around again and we just weren't happy with any of the houses we checked, which led us to contact a BUILDER!! We got to pick out every detail of our house and couldn't have been happier. Everything was finished in October and we spent the two major holidays of the year in our new house.

Cut to six months later and here we are.

And still another year away from trying IVF again. It was definitely a learning experience, albeit, an expensive one. We will do ICSI from the start and freeze half the eggs. And, AND!!!! when we do IVF next year, our credit will be shiny! So shiny, in fact, that we will get a bomb-ass APR when we finance it.

I'm not going to lie though, everyday is still up and down. There are super dark days that I just feel so useless and immobilized but I have to remind myself to just keep moving forward. Even when I don't want to. Even when I don't believe I can. Then I recover, days feel better, colors brighter. Wash. Rinse. Repeat.

But I'm still here, still going, and still praying.

Baby dust y'all!

One Small Step for Infertility, A Huge Leap Towards Baby Boomer

Today was consultation day and I'm feeling just a bit overwhelmed, okay, a lot overwhelmed...
A couple of things talked about was the possible use of ICSI instead of insemination and PGS. Both of these these weird me out to the max. Just thinking about someone poking into my eggs or embryos is scaring the baJesus out of me.
Looking at different success rates on paper is all Mr. Boomer needed to see to be down but, and a HUGE but, I'm terrified. All the what-if's are just now hitting me. I just believed that trying this would be no biggie and we'd probably get pregnant right away. I liked that little world much better than what-if.


Now, for the good news, I have a lots of BIG BEAUTIFUL FOLLICLES! I could not smile bigger if I tried! These babies are just ready to be fertilized....


So today was a good day with lots of information (including crazy prices) and I'm so ready to meet my Baby Boomer!!!!

This Last Month...

This last month has gone by so fast.

We've had my step-kids for the last 47 days and they've gone back to the middle of no-where to their psycho mother.

It never feels like enough time and I miss having them around already.

4th of July kind of struck a chord on me. My hubby's son (also the oldest at 13) had all the younger boys in the neighborhood following him around chunking m-80's in the street. Later he told hubby and my sis-in-law how he would love to have a little brother since he only has little sisters.  :(

On a brighter note, Hubby is in the union and just got insurance, which covers infertility treatments!!!! YEAH!!!

Sooo... I'm looking for houses and trying to get us the little boost we need to start dropping money on my belly getting huge. MrBoomer has procrastination problems so it's kinda all on me. No worries though, I don't really mind.

I'm toying with the idea of vlogging while I go through the whole IVF process from consultation until I poop a baby out. I might have to travel about 3 hours to get to a clinic though because I haven't found a Natural Cycle IVF offered here in Houston, but I LOVE Austin anyway and have friends out there who support us.

Cross your fingers for this house hunting lady.

STICKY BABY DUST!

Just an Intro of Myself

Hi I'm MrsBoomer and I'm infertile.

We've been trying to have a baby since 2011. That year we did conceive but found out in the ER that it was an ectopic pregnancy and I lost a fallopian tube. I lost my other fallopian tube just last year in another EP. 

So I'm here.

I've been reading so many blogs and seeing this great community of people that are so uplifting and I believe I'm ready to share my journey with others. 

I can literally hear my biological clock just ticking away. Every menstral cycle feels like another egg wasted and I'm only getting older. Sounds depressing and for the most part it really is but I have my husband and he really makes everything more optimistic.


When I was 16 I had gotten pregnant. Though I knew I was an idiot and life would be a million times more difficult I couldn't help but feel... Excited, but mostly scared shitless. Alas twas not meant to be. At 3 months I miscarried. Nothing really prepares you for that. I had no support from anyone, not even my mother or sister(who already had two of her own).

The worst part of it all: I told only a few what happened but the responses I got were the worst thing you could tell someone in that kind of situation;

MAYBE IT WAS FOR THE BEST...

maybe it was for the best?

oh god....

Maybe a child's death is for the best? I'm sorry but eff that. How could anyone find it okay to say that to someone who JUST lost their baby? NOT okay, regardless of age.

Well, I'm older and I've gone through all the sad/angry/denial of losing what I felt made me a woman. We're getting ready to start looking at our options.

We have been doing some research on the Natural Cycle IVF and we will look into it as soon as we're settled into our new place which is about 6 months away. I haven't really come across any blogs of women trying this option so if anyone has done it and has something they'd like to share with me I would love the input.

THE BOOMERS