One Small Step for Infertility, A Huge Leap Towards Baby Boomer

Today was consultation day and I'm feeling just a bit overwhelmed, okay, a lot overwhelmed...
A couple of things talked about was the possible use of ICSI instead of insemination and PGS. Both of these these weird me out to the max. Just thinking about someone poking into my eggs or embryos is scaring the baJesus out of me.
Looking at different success rates on paper is all Mr. Boomer needed to see to be down but, and a HUGE but, I'm terrified. All the what-if's are just now hitting me. I just believed that trying this would be no biggie and we'd probably get pregnant right away. I liked that little world much better than what-if.


Now, for the good news, I have a lots of BIG BEAUTIFUL FOLLICLES! I could not smile bigger if I tried! These babies are just ready to be fertilized....


So today was a good day with lots of information (including crazy prices) and I'm so ready to meet my Baby Boomer!!!!

Dreams, Depression, and Downsides

Let me start by expressing my apologies. I know, I know, I haven't posted in forever. I've been sick, I got let go from my job, (place more excuses here). Everything seems to get in the way and it's hard to find "me" time. That's what I've decided this is, my expression, my stress free zone, Mine.

I've been having these dreams the last two months, of being pregnant/giving birth, and at all different stages. I've seen my children (yes, plural) in my dreams. A boy and a girl, twins no less. My mother believes that if you see your child in your dream it's God's way of showing whats to come. As much as I'd love to accept that as truth, I think it's more likely my subconscious projecting what I want.

Right now, that's hard to deal with. Waking up from vivid dreams of children and knowing that I'm infertile and it's going to be this way for a while.

I'm trying to focus on the positive though. We'll have our house in January. DH and I finally decided on a date to talk to the infertility clinic as well. Our only option is IVF so we're going to a clinic in Austin in May that provides the Natural Cycle.

If anyone has any stories or advice on their own Natural Cycle IVF good or bad I'd love to hear it.

Just an Intro of Myself

Hi I'm MrsBoomer and I'm infertile.

We've been trying to have a baby since 2011. That year we did conceive but found out in the ER that it was an ectopic pregnancy and I lost a fallopian tube. I lost my other fallopian tube just last year in another EP. 

So I'm here.

I've been reading so many blogs and seeing this great community of people that are so uplifting and I believe I'm ready to share my journey with others. 

I can literally hear my biological clock just ticking away. Every menstral cycle feels like another egg wasted and I'm only getting older. Sounds depressing and for the most part it really is but I have my husband and he really makes everything more optimistic.


When I was 16 I had gotten pregnant. Though I knew I was an idiot and life would be a million times more difficult I couldn't help but feel... Excited, but mostly scared shitless. Alas twas not meant to be. At 3 months I miscarried. Nothing really prepares you for that. I had no support from anyone, not even my mother or sister(who already had two of her own).

The worst part of it all: I told only a few what happened but the responses I got were the worst thing you could tell someone in that kind of situation;

MAYBE IT WAS FOR THE BEST...

maybe it was for the best?

oh god....

Maybe a child's death is for the best? I'm sorry but eff that. How could anyone find it okay to say that to someone who JUST lost their baby? NOT okay, regardless of age.

Well, I'm older and I've gone through all the sad/angry/denial of losing what I felt made me a woman. We're getting ready to start looking at our options.

We have been doing some research on the Natural Cycle IVF and we will look into it as soon as we're settled into our new place which is about 6 months away. I haven't really come across any blogs of women trying this option so if anyone has done it and has something they'd like to share with me I would love the input.

THE BOOMERS