Trading Addictions

I quit smoking about 3 weeks ago. YAY! right? Unfortunately I've been functioning solely on red bulls and rockstars..... Yikes!


This date is is hovering ever closer and I'm so ready but I don't want to do these test and have something else come up. I've read other blogs of women who have scarring in their uterus and since I had scarring in my tubes (which caused me to lose both with ectopic pregnancies) I feel like this may end up being a problem.


I always just want to think, "But I'm young! Nothing should be wrong!", still these doubts seem to linger just like a bully pointing and laughing at my misery... I will have the last laugh.


If you caught me about a year ago I would still be blaming God. I walked off His path for a really long time, wondering how he could take my precious children from me before I could even hold them. But He is making me stronger and still always shaping me to really appreciate my future child, to always have hope that he will provide.


On a side note, midterms are this week and I'm trading awesome wonderful lovely sleep for study time. I haven't seen hubby in about 3days since I've been working odd hours. All will turn out well, I just know it!


I should probably go shopping now. I've been sitting in the parking lot writing this. And I also just realized how bad my ADHD is showing in this post! Have a great weekend guys!

Hump Day

I remember signing up for classes was as easy as logging in to my online account. Now it's just a pain in my butt. I'm so ready to be done with school and in my forever job *sigh* but so blessed to have the opportunity to be where I am.


I'm just counting away the days to May when we go to the clinic. It shouldn't be so hard to become a mother. I used to joke that I wanted an army of children to take over the world but now I really would give anything to have just one. I see friends and acquaintances from high school getting pregnant left and right, saying there's something in the water. I must be drinking from a bottle... 😆




I watched a documentary on veganism the other day and I'm thinking maybe it could be a great lifestyle change by DH thinks I'm nuts now. Sooooo maybe not. Probably not good for a healthy pregnancy anyway.


5 more months!!