I remember signing up for classes was as easy as logging in to my online account. Now it's just a pain in my butt. I'm so ready to be done with school and in my forever job *sigh* but so blessed to have the opportunity to be where I am.
I'm just counting away the days to May when we go to the clinic. It shouldn't be so hard to become a mother. I used to joke that I wanted an army of children to take over the world but now I really would give anything to have just one. I see friends and acquaintances from high school getting pregnant left and right, saying there's something in the water. I must be drinking from a bottle... 😆
I watched a documentary on veganism the other day and I'm thinking maybe it could be a great lifestyle change by DH thinks I'm nuts now. Sooooo maybe not. Probably not good for a healthy pregnancy anyway.
5 more months!!
Showing posts with label depression. Show all posts
Showing posts with label depression. Show all posts
Wednesday, December 3, 2014
Wednesday, November 12, 2014
Dreams, Depression, and Downsides
Let me start by expressing my apologies. I know, I know, I haven't posted in forever. I've been sick, I got let go from my job, (place more excuses here). Everything seems to get in the way and it's hard to find "me" time. That's what I've decided this is, my expression, my stress free zone, Mine.
I've been having these dreams the last two months, of being pregnant/giving birth, and at all different stages. I've seen my children (yes, plural) in my dreams. A boy and a girl, twins no less. My mother believes that if you see your child in your dream it's God's way of showing whats to come. As much as I'd love to accept that as truth, I think it's more likely my subconscious projecting what I want.
Right now, that's hard to deal with. Waking up from vivid dreams of children and knowing that I'm infertile and it's going to be this way for a while.
I'm trying to focus on the positive though. We'll have our house in January. DH and I finally decided on a date to talk to the infertility clinic as well. Our only option is IVF so we're going to a clinic in Austin in May that provides the Natural Cycle.
If anyone has any stories or advice on their own Natural Cycle IVF good or bad I'd love to hear it.
I've been having these dreams the last two months, of being pregnant/giving birth, and at all different stages. I've seen my children (yes, plural) in my dreams. A boy and a girl, twins no less. My mother believes that if you see your child in your dream it's God's way of showing whats to come. As much as I'd love to accept that as truth, I think it's more likely my subconscious projecting what I want.
Right now, that's hard to deal with. Waking up from vivid dreams of children and knowing that I'm infertile and it's going to be this way for a while.
I'm trying to focus on the positive though. We'll have our house in January. DH and I finally decided on a date to talk to the infertility clinic as well. Our only option is IVF so we're going to a clinic in Austin in May that provides the Natural Cycle.
If anyone has any stories or advice on their own Natural Cycle IVF good or bad I'd love to hear it.
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