Wednesday, April 29, 2015

How Hard Are You Willing to Fight?

I'm pretty sure Murphy's Law was based on my life.

We have been making these plans to take care of the financial part of IVF and focusing everything on it. Friday my car dropped its speed while I was on the highway and wouldn't rise above 60 mph. Then, Monday, when the three kids I nanny are in my car, it decides to shut completely off.

So now its in the shop and i don't have much hope for it. I'm in an overpriced rental because I'm three years younger than they would like to have me. Lets just say, money is so tight, it's looking like IVF is near impossible.

But, nothing is impossible.

I just finished reading a post that made me realize what this is:

First, nothing is impossible through God
Second, He wants to make sure I don't want a baby more than I want Him.
Third, how hard am I willing to fight?

And let me just say, at certain times I feel completely drained and weak, but I think of what has been done for me through Christ and I absolutely KNOW I can do this! He gives me the strength I need. Money may seem like an issue but I just need to have faith that He will always provide what is needed

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

One Small Step for Infertility, A Huge Leap Towards Baby Boomer

Today was consultation day and I'm feeling just a bit overwhelmed, okay, a lot overwhelmed...
A couple of things talked about was the possible use of ICSI instead of insemination and PGS. Both of these these weird me out to the max. Just thinking about someone poking into my eggs or embryos is scaring the baJesus out of me.
Looking at different success rates on paper is all Mr. Boomer needed to see to be down but, and a HUGE but, I'm terrified. All the what-if's are just now hitting me. I just believed that trying this would be no biggie and we'd probably get pregnant right away. I liked that little world much better than what-if.

Now, for the good news, I have a lots of BIG BEAUTIFUL FOLLICLES! I could not smile bigger if I tried! These babies are just ready to be fertilized....

So today was a good day with lots of information (including crazy prices) and I'm so ready to meet my Baby Boomer!!!!